For me, at the moment, real life sucks. Basic gist is I’m depressed. And afraid of people when I’m not on the med I was on because I ran out of it.
Ironic, huh, that I find relief in an MMORPG when, normally, I’m afraid of phone calls and ordering food and turning homework in. It’s something about text-based communication that I’m fine with, I think. I mean, I’m quiet on Vent, but will type out paragraphs in chat with no problem.
I also have next to no confidence in myself, and just feel frustrated that I can’t go pursue what I want and be happy with myself because others make me feel like an idiot. Yeah, it’s probably one of those “stop blaming this on others,” but once I get around to telling someone about my grades or how I’m doing, I just completely lose it all and get super nervous & agitated about everything I do.
Anyway. Life. It sucks. I’m sure you don’t want to hear me whine about it.
Pulled myself out of raiding because I’ll be having some unreliable interwebs connection over the summer. And because I probably need to deal with this crap first. But I still want to cheer on my guild as they continue. Hopefully I’ll be back in Ruby Sanctum, but maybe not.
At the least I want to get on and make some Fish Feasts and maybe some flasks to put in the gbank. Those don’t require a solid 3 hours of uninterrupted interwebs time, anyway.
I’ve been trying it.
Shocker, I know. Especially after that other post.
My dorf priest, who is going to be raised on mouse turning alone, is level 14. I haven’t decided whether I should focus on leveling or whether he should be forced to PvP level as well.
But it’s actually starting to stick a bit. I went and unbound A & D (and the left & right arrow keys, too), so I physically cannot turn by keyboard. I hit A & D a lot, and I do miss it when I can’t navigate by one hand.
What? I multitask when I play sometimes.
But then I logged onto my shaman and…started mouse turning by accident. I didn’t really realize I had been mouse-turning until I went to pick up my drink with my right/mouse hand and instinctively hit the A & D keys while autorunning.
It does help me better when I need to turn in a split second, but autorunning long distances (questing), I still prefer keyboard-turning. I also have this tendency to turn the camera while fighting a mob, and I keep accidentally turning my toon instead of the camera. Oops.
No, I haven’t tried PvP yet. Mainly because I’m pretty sure a) my dorf needs to gain a few more levels before it’ll make much of a difference, and b) it’d help to have a friend to talk over Vent or chat or in the room with.
Specifically b). I get stuck in this “FUCK OFF” mood whenever I try to PvP by myself, dying because I’m somewhere between not knowing what the fuck I’m doing and people generally being asshats.
I still don’t think mouse turning has vastly improved my game, but then again, I haven’t really done anything terribly significant with it.
So I’ll continue my dorf priest experiment with it.
I’m still here
…just maybe not as active. It’s not a pre-expansion burnout slump; I’m pretty sure it’s not. I still have much I find entertaining and awesome in the game as it is now. Especially, I feel energized and at home in Conspiracy. I find myself thinking more “I want to raid with my guild,” than “I want to raid.”
It’s just that RL decided to run me over and take me away from the keyboard.
It’s cool. I’ve got the Friend Buff; this RL boss can kiss the floor. 🙂